GETTING STARTED

I wanted to examine myself and this situation from the inside out. I had an undying passion to know more about this person I had always been, but had not been introduced to.

On July 4, 2018, I began stirring up the inner and outer cosmos by performing the first set of 72 Names of God Angel meditations to assist me on my quest. I started with the following angels.

July 4	37 Aniel: The Big Picture. 12:00-12:20 PM. Grasping the big picture behind your obstacles. Purity, Cleansing, Positivity
July 5	38 Haamiah: Circuitry. 12:20-12:40 PM. Circuity for receiving for the sake of sharing. Homemaker, Ceremonies, Cook
July 6	35 Chavakiah: Sexual Energy. 11:20-11:40 AM. Connecting to spirituality ignites sexual energy. Family, Ancestors
July 7	69 Rochel: Lost and Found. 10:40-11:00 PM. Wisdom. To find and not lose sight of direction. Restitution, Intuition,
July 8	63 Anauel: Appreciation. 8:40-9:00 PM. Great appreciation, humility, and gratitude. Human Relations, Unity, Inspires
July 9	31 Lecabel: Finish What You Start. 10:00-10:20 AM. Overcome obstacles. Planner, Business, Strategy
July 10	42 Mikael: Revealing The Concealed. 1:40-2:00 PM. Connecting to spiritual secrets. Solves Mysteries, Brings Order
July 11	54 Nithael: The Death of Death. 5:40-6:00 PM. Immortality cancels death. Ageless, Grace, Ability to Heal
July 12	71 Haiaiel: Prophecy and Parallel Universes. 11:20-11:40 PM. Prophecy and intuition to transform consciousness. Divine
July 13	36 Menadel: Fear(Less). 11:40-12:00 PM. Conquer your fears and stop panic attacks. Work, Dedication, Will Power
July 14	51 Hahasiah: No Guilt. 4:40-5:00 PM. Power of repentance to repair past sins. Spiritual Medicine, Elevated Soul
July 15	52 Imamiah: Passion. 5:00-5:20 PM. Correct consciousness in prayer. Counselor, Faithful Servant
July 16	8 Cahetel: Defusing Negative Energy. 2:20-2:40 AM. Remove negative energy from yourself and others. Blessing,
July 17	53 Nanael: No Agenda. 5:20-5:40 PM. Power of Archangel Michael, love, and kindness. Spiritual Communication, Invocation
July 18	60 Mitzrael: Freedom. 7:40-8:00 PM. Delivery from emotional bondage and negative patterns. Reparation, Rectification,
July 19	43 Veubiah: Defying Gravity. 2:00-2:20 PM. Elevation of spiritual over physical. Controls destiny. Prosperity, Philanthropist,
July 20	49 Vehuel: Happiness. 4:00-420 PM. Ask what your soul needs, not what your ego wants. Enlightenment, Devotion.
July 21	65 Damabiah: Fear of God. 9:20-9:40 PM. Knowing the consequences of bad behavior. Wise, Pure, Linked to Water

I turned 57 on July 22, 2018, and had just transitioned from The Hanged Man year in the Tarot into the year of “Death.” It was clear that I was going through yet another death/rebirth and a severe identity crisis, which caused several painful issues to resurface from my past.  I began to reflect on my childhood very differently.

Over the next several months, I sent numerous letters and emails to my family. The emails and letters could have been a complete chapter. On Friday, August 3, 2018, my niece messaged me that my sister was in the hospital. On the same day, my oldest brother wrote to me, telling me I needed to call my sister. She was worried about me and needed to hear from me.

I called her cell phone. She answered right away. She was suffering from dehydration, and while she was in the hospital receiving fluids, her heart had stopped for 7.5 seconds. This prompted her doctor to put her in the ICU. We spoke for several minutes, and I then hung up the phone. I felt so helpless and confused because I wasn’t exactly sure who I was talking to. A part of me felt like my sister could have been my mother, and that’s why my brothers showed up as uncles on my mom’s side of the family on the DNA chart. When my sister told me to “stop digging,” I became even more suspicious and paranoid. I didn’t know what to believe or who I could trust.

I honestly did not know which direction to take. I felt utterly immobilized.  Two days later, on August 5, 2018, I sent the following note to every family member.

I needed to take a step back. Things had gotten entirely out of hand. I continued to do my Angel meditations, began a new meal plan, and started working out more vigorously at the gym. I was drowning emotionally, but I tried everything I could think of to keep my head above water.

Once again, I turned to the angel meditations and continued to pray for my family members, both living and deceased. Over the next several months, I performed the remaining 72 Names of God Angel Meditations on top of The Transfiguration of Christ Mountain.

Between August 7 and November 8, 2018, I continued to do inner work and asked for assistance in discovering the truth.

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