Crazy was the eighth track from the album titled Madame X released on June 14, 2019. – “‘I love you But I will not let you destroy me I put you on a pedestal, but statues, they can fall. Felt so safe, I let you drive me straight into the war.”
Between July 2017 and May 2018, my family and I went through another major transformation. It was at this point that I wondered if I had lost my family for good.
It all started when I tried to return to North Carolina to attend a party I initiated for one of my sibling’s 70th birthday. I got as far as Amarillo, Texas, and had to return to Phoenix after my sciatica returned in the left leg. I knew that if I continued the drive things would get much worse.
The guilt directed at me for not being able to return to North Carolina was unbearable and at times very abusive. I endured this treatment for ten straight months. It almost drove me crazy.
And then the unexpected events in ACT IX – Revelations – Blood – Trials and Tribulations unfolded right before my very own eyes, which took things to a different place altogether.
CRAZY
It’s gon’ be the last night I wait up for you
Spent a long time wakin ‘up
Used to think that I was not enough for you
Now I see that I’m just way too much
You got your hands full, I misunderstood
Now I see that I’m who I can trust
And you got a lot of wrong you’re tryna make goodBut if you think I’ve been foolish
And you only fool me once
I guess it’s shame on you
Said now, if you think I’ve been foolish
And you keep on tryna do it
Baby, I’ma switch the blames on you
‘Cause you’re driving me crazy
You must think I ‘m crazy
You make me so crazy
You think I’m crazy
And I won’t let you drive me crazy
I won’t let you drive me crazy
You won’t make me so crazy
You won’t make me so crazy
I bent my knees for you like a prayer
My God, look at me now
Peel off my weakness, layer after layer
Nothing left for me to keep ’round
I’m a force and I won’t tame, babe
Can’t go through this and stay the same, babe
I’ve seen a lot of stranger things, babe
And I’ll never look at you the same
But if you think I’ve been foolish
And you only fool me once
I guess it’s shame on you
Said now, if you think I’ve been foolish
And you keep on tryna do it
Baby, I’ma switch the blames on you
‘Cause you’re driving me crazy
You must think I’m crazy
You make me so crazy
You think I’m crazy
And I will not let you drive me crazy
I will not let you drive me crazy
You must think I’m crazy
You make me so crazy
I love you
But I will not let you destroy me
I put you on a pedestal, but statues, they can fall
Felt so safe, I let you drive me straight into the war
Paid the hand you dealt me, thought you felt me
Was never good at games, now I’ll just forget your name
(Forget your name) Mmm
But if you think I’ve been foolish
And you only fool me once
I guess it’s shame on you
Said now, if you think I’ve been foolish
And you keep on tryna do it
Baby, I’ma switch the blames on you
‘Cause you’re driving me crazy
You must think I’m crazy
You make me so crazy
You think I’m crazy
And I won’t let you drive me crazy
I will not let you drive me crazy (Crazy)
You will not put me so mad
you will not put me so crazy (Crazy)
‘Cause you’re driving me crazy
You must think I’m crazy
You put me so mad
You think I’m crazy
And I won’t let you drive me crazy
I won’t let you drive me crazy
You won’t make me so crazy
You won’t make me so crazy