Swim was the second track from the Ray of Light CD. – “I can’t carry these sins on my back don’t wanna carry anymore I’m gonna carry this train off the track I’m gonna swim to the ocean floor.”
My relationship with Cyrus took off instantly. It seems that we were destined to experience some fantastic events over the next several years together, that would change both of our lives in very positive ways.
Cyrus and I did our first AIDS Bicycle Ride from Raleigh, North Carolina, to Washington, DC. Collectively, we brought in over $4,000.00 for the non-profit organization Food and Friends, and the Whitman Walker Clinic. We would do the very same thing the following year, raising even more money for our community.
We did these things in the memory of our past lovers and for those people that were still living with HIV, straight and gay. Around the same time, we sewed AIDS Quilt panels for both of our deceased lovers (Thaddeus and his dead lover, Alan). Sewing the AIDS Panel for the Names Project in San Francisco and completing the AIDS Rides were very healing experiences. The experience changed us both in many different ways, on deep levels.
In addition to all of this, we also decided to dive headfirst into metaphysics and explore the mystery of spirituality and life after death. In addition to Thaddeus and Lucas, I had experienced other strange occurrences with friends of mine that had passed away, so I wanted to have a clearer understanding of what was going on. It was around this time that we met a medium who went by the name, Chuza. While working with her, we would learn new and fascinating things about everything around us.
Over the course of the next few years, Cyrus and I took some incredible vacations. We visited places like Las Vegas, The Grand Canyon, Monument Valley, Sequoia National Park, San Francisco, and Yosemite National Park. One of our vacations involved a drive up the California coastline, from San Diego to Seattle. During this two-week vacation, we visited Laguna Beach, Los Angeles, Santa Barbara, Monterrey, San Francisco, and Eureka, California. We continued that trip up through Oregon and Washington State, ending in Seattle. This trip ended on August 31, 1997, the very same day that Princess Diana died. I was fascinated to learn that Princess Diana was born three weeks, or just twenty-one days before me.
I didn’t know it at the time, but another reincarnation was about to take place.
Put your head on my shoulder baby
Things can’t get any worse
Night is getting colder
Sometimes life feels like it’s a curse
I can’t carry these sins on my back
Don’t wanna carry any more
I’m gonna carry this train off the track
I’m gonna swim to the ocean floor
Crash to the other shore
Swim to the ocean floor
Children killing children
While the students rape their teachers
Comets fly across the sky
While the churches burn their preachers
We can’t carry these sins on our back
Don’t wanna carry any more
We’re gonna carry this train off the track
We’re gonna swim to the ocean floor