INTRODUCTION
July 22, 2026, finally arrived. My Judgment year was behind me, and my final year arrived; a great time for a brief review.
Where to start? Let’s see. Briefly, I had an amazing childhood. I fell in love and lost my virginity at 23. My higher self told me to break up with him, which left my heart broken into a million pieces. But that brief affair was worth it. I came out as gay and was deeply betrayed by a family member, whom I had loved with every fiber of my being when I was younger. I became estranged from my family, left North Carolina at 34, and began my search for a new home, learning to believe in myself and trusting that everything would be okay. I realized this kind of thing had happened to a lot of people, but never to me, and I wanted to kill myself. I gathered up my courage, faced the rejection, and set out to see the world.
I ended up in Washington, DC, where I lived the next nine years, fulfilling a dream of living in a large city with an openly gay environment, great nightclubs, and public transportation that made it easy to get around town and to places like Philadelphia and New York City. This era of independence turned out to be a lot of fun. I fell in love again. We both attended the Arlington Metaphysical Chapel for several months in 2004; we broke up, and I was completely heartbroken. That autumn I quit my job and left Washington, DC.
I spent that winter in Southern Florida, and by the next spring, found myself on the other side of the country, in Portland, Oregon, a place I had never visited. I was beginning to understand that rejection and heartbreak inspired me in magical ways.
This is where I began my love for Native American culture and developed a deeper understanding of metaphysics. At the time, I wanted to manifest a job that let me work from home. I fulfilled that dream by the spring of 2006. This job let me move to various places out west, including Santa Fe, New Mexico, Denver, Colorado, and back to Portland. I also explored the desert Southwest.
I was forced to quit that job in 2009, another rejection, which inspired me to embark on a life-changing adventure unlike anything I had attempted before. That 72-day journey brought me back to North Carolina, and then back to Portland, Oregon, where I slept in my truck for the summer of 2010.
That autumn I ended up in Arizona, where I lived for the next 7 years. In Arizona, I tried dating someone but discovered that we were better suited as spiritual brothers. I managed his apartments voluntarily, worked at a metaphysical bookstore, and developed two very close friendships at Hopi, where I was eventually considered a Hopi. This was by far the most mystical, magical time of my life. I did fall in love for a third time with someone in their 20s, but ended it. I learned about my natural father in 2018. I left Arizona in March 2020 and moved to the San Francisco Bay Area at the beginning of COVID.
I lived in the Bay Area for 3 1/2 years, until September 2023, relocated to coastal North Carolina, and spent the next three years reuniting with family and creating the home I had been searching for since 1994. This was by far the most healing time of my life, although less adventurous.
In July 2026, as I began my sixth 13-year period in life, I embarked on the final year of my adventure.
The 13 Levels of Awareness
The 13 dimensions of consciousness represent a spiritual framework of evolving awareness, moving from basic physical existence up to union with the infinite creator.
1st Density/Dimension: Basic atomic and elemental components; the foundation of matter and physical geometry.
2nd Density/Dimension: The level of plants and animals; driven by instinct, basic sensation, and life force.
3rd Density/Dimension: Standard human physical reality; focused on ego identity, linear time, survival, and separation.
4th Density/Dimension: The astral plane and quantum gateway; where thoughts, timelines, and lucid dreaming take form.
5th Density/Dimension: Unity and higher awareness; moving past the ego into heart coherence, compassion, and observer consciousness.
6th Density/Dimension: The oversoul and master blueprint; holding soul contracts, archetypes, and the architecture of incarnation.
7th Density/Dimension: Planetary and collective oversouls; a state of pure harmony and the unified field of entire species.
8th Density/Dimension: Solar consciousness; holding awareness and responsibility at the level of a star system.
9th Density/Dimension: Galactic consciousness; individual awareness expanded to encompass an entire galaxy.
10th Density/Dimension: Galactic collectives; groups of galactic consciousness merging.
11th Density/Dimension: Universal consciousness; the awareness of the entire physical universe as a single living entity.
12th Density/Dimension: The universal brain or cosmic soul; the collective intelligence connecting all universal matrices.
13th Density/Dimension: Super-consciousness and Source; the final integration point and return to the Infinite Creator.
The World Tarot card:
The card brought the following meaning:
integrating
experiencing wholeness
bringing parts together
achieving dynamic balance
combining
creating synthesis
joining together
working in unison
accomplishing
realizing your goals
prospering
achieving your heart’s desire
seeing dreams come true
flourishing
finding a beautiful solution
becoming involved
contributing
healing
rendering a service
using a gift or talent
sharing what you have
giving of yourself
feeling engaged
being active
feeling fulfilled
savoring the present
taking pleasure in life
enjoying peace of mind
getting satisfaction
finding contentment
counting your blessings
Symbolically, the image also represented the Tetramorph in Christianity.
Winged, Blonde Man or Angel: Represents Matthew in the Hebrew Bible, focusing on the human genealogy and incarnation of Christ, the sign Aquarius, the element of Air, which was my South Node or past-life incarnation in my astrology chart.
Winged Lion: Represents Mark in the Hebrew Bible, symbolizing royalty, courage, and the voice crying out in the wilderness; the sign Leo, the element of Fire, which was my Rising Sign in my personal chart.
Winged Ox or Bull: Represents Luke in the Hebrew Bible, signifying sacrifice, service, and the priesthood; the sign Taurus, the element of Earth, which was my midheaven in my personal chart, and my Chinese Astrology Sign – The Metal Ox.
Eagle: Represents John in the Hebrew Bible, denoting divine spirit, loftiness, and theological insight; the sign Scorpio, the element of water, and my Moon Sign in my personal chart.
Entering this final chapter, I had no clear vision of what came next, but the same could be said for the start of every chapter during and after 72 Days of God.
Feeling accomplished in what I set out to do, part of me felt I could finally put down my pen and allow this final year to reveal itself organically, with no real effort on my part.
I wondered if it was meant for the The World to discover my story, or if it was meant to remain hidden in the shadows. Another part of me, however, wasn’t 100% convinced I should stop writing. I gave it some time before making a final decision.
On Wednesday, August 26, 2026, I noticed a green dragonfly inside my apartment. I had no idea how it got inside my home, but as soon as I discovered it, I opened the front door and let it out. This visitation felt significant to me.
A green dragonfly spiritually symbolizes personal growth, emotional healing, renewal, and heart-centered abundance.
Core Spiritual Meanings
Growth and Renewal: A green dragonfly represents a fresh chapter, new ideas, and the unfolding of your potential.
Heart-Centered Healing: Connected to the heart chakra, seeing one encourages emotional recovery, self-acceptance, and the release of envy or past grief.
Nature Connection: It signifies a grounded, harmonious bond with the natural world and a reminder to slow down and find balance.
General Dragonfly Symbolism: Across traditions, dragonflies also embody deep transformation, adaptability, and the grace to navigate life changes.
And with that, I remained open to new possibilities.