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Day Fifty-Three – April 10, 2010
I began my 72 Days of God journey on February 17, 2010, on the very first day of what was known as my “Saturn” period. “Saturn embodies the positive agency of homeostasis and urges us to stay the same, to automatically correct any influence toward change, transformation, or upheaval. Saturn’s agency thus, is to maintain earthy, practical needs, even at the risk of calcification or depression. If Saturn is not honored in life, then it can bring a sense of soulless conventionality and psychological and physical stuckness to bear on the soul.”
On the previous day, April 9, I moved over into what was known as my “Uranus” period. “Uranus is the planetary medium which impels us toward change and acts as the inner agency for experimentation, growth, evolution and individuation. Too, Uranus is our inner witness, watching for opportunities to change habitual behaviors, disrupt the status quo and stir up any stagnant pool. If Uranus is not honored, then anxiety and manic behavior can irrupt, forcing one to “wake up” to what is required.”
It was during this Uranus period that I would end my journey. I knew some change would occur during this period, but I wasn’t sure exactly what that would entail.
I woke up to another image of a crucifix hanging over Mount LeConte. It was my second crucifix in several days.
Coupled with the crucifix image, I received another beautiful, timely poem from my friend, Casey.
The missing part of your soul
Wants you to become whole
You are doing what’s right
As you follow the light
Which will guide you on to your goal.
The God within friendship and unconditional love were trying to tell me something.
After breakfast, I sat on the porch and looked over the beautiful Tennessee landscape. I was not quite awake and in a very melancholy mood, wondering what I should do with my day.
The following scene unfolded while I sat there, minding my business and contemplating my day.
The hawk appeared, but this time it wasn’t alone. It brought two of its friends or family members along, and the three played around in the sky directly in front of me.
That afternoon, I decided to drive around the mountain and passed a pair of Swans by a pond.
Swan brings the following medicine:
- Awakening the power of self
- Understanding dream symbols
- Seeing into the future
- Understanding spiritual evolution –
- Developing intuitive abilities
- Divination
- Grace in dealing with others
- Copyright – Animalspirits.com
I returned to my sister’s cabin, and while standing in the doorway on the front porch, one of the hawks flew within several yards of the cabin.
Inspired, I stepped back inside and began working on my journal. I took a moment to do my daily meditation.
That evening I decided to drive into Knoxville. I needed to be around other people. I visited one of the local bars and talked to several people throughout the night. I met this one guy who claimed to be psychic. The two of us went to the back of the bar, where he proceeded to tell me things about myself. He was spot on with several important issues. I was impressed.
He then mentioned death and the number 3. He wasn’t sure if the 3 represented March, the third day of the month, or whatever, but the number 3 was very significant. I then thought about the crucifix and the three hawks and wondered if those messages had anything to do with the death he mentioned. Or my 1, 2, 3 religion.
I departed Knoxville at 2:15 AM and returned to my sister’s cabin at 3:15 AM. I went to bed immediately afterward.