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Absolute Certainty
Day Forty-Six – April 3, 2010
I woke up to a gentle, steady rain. I lay in bed and drifted in and out of sleep for about an hour, and once the rain stopped, I crawled out of the back of my truck and took in the fresh morning air.
As difficult as the drive was the day before, I was proud of myself for making it this far. Although I was starting to show signs of breaking down, I kept my mind active by doing my daily meditations and thinking positive thoughts. Not every idea was positive, but I was doing the very best that I could. I kept reminding myself to live in the moment and not think too far ahead. It was a challenge at times.
After I got my day started, I went for a hike through the woods close to my campsite. I knew if anything could keep me centered and grounded; it was spending time in nature. I couldn’t wait to see what messages Mother Nature had in store for me.
I hiked to the edge of the woods and down a steep incline to a nearby creek.
The creek was so peaceful and beautiful. I lay on one of the big rocks and did my morning meditation.
Once I finished my meditation, I took a moment to explore the area and found a centipede crawling across a moss-covered rock.
Centipede offers the following wisdom:
- Balance
- Coordination
- Ability to survive stress
- Beauty of movement
It was the perfect message for my current frame of mind. Just a few yards away was a gorgeous flower, just waiting to be a photo in my journal.
And then Mother Nature revealed her second important message for the morning when I happened upon a lizard sunning itself on a log.
Lizard brings the following medicine:
- Detachment from ego
- Power to regenerate that which is lost
- Facing fear
- Controlling dreams
- Moving in the otherworld
- Copyright Animalspirits.com
I liked the lizard’s wisdom and especially appreciated the message about detaching myself from my ego. My ego was the part of me that kept getting in my way. I walked through the woods for the next hour or so and returned to my campsite.
I then remembered that I had to drive into town to visit a GNC store to replenish my vitamin supply. I had entirely run out the day before. I went to Rainbow City, Alabama, and spent $54.00 on vitamins. Life and the 72 Days of God’s journey continued to eat away at my savings, but instead of getting stressed out about it, I decided just to let go.
I checked in with my faith and had a strong feeling that everything would be taken care of at some point. After doing my daily meditation on the left, I was sure of it. I then took a moment to go back and do the last five meditations and reconnected with my journey and the day ahead.
I spent part of the afternoon talking on Skype with some of my family and friends back in my hometown. Although I was only eight hours away, I told everyone I wasn’t ready to descend. I had some other areas to explore.
For several years I had envisioned myself living in Portland, Oregon from June until October, North Carolina during November and December, and points in between during the coldest months and spring. (Austin? Tucson? Palm Springs?) At this point, it was a dream that I truly wanted to manifest. Within the last year or so, I also envisioned incorporating my William Christopher Jordan website and my photography into that dream.
Reading and creating charts for people was my new passion. I didn’t care about the money; I just wanted the freedom to express myself, be creative, and share the meaning of life with others. Okay, I did care about the money, but it wasn’t the most important thing.
That evening, the campground had another bonfire, and I joined everyone for a second round of speeches. Sitting around listening to people share their lives and experiences was a lot of fun. Some guys were hilarious, telling their tales. I loved everyone’s sense of humor.
I returned to my campsite around 10:30 PM, logged on to my computer, and discovered another response to my 72 Days of God survey. Date of Reading: April 3, 2010
Participant’s Name: Kanoalani
Kanoalani’s Birthdate: 3/8/1949
Kanoalani’s answers to the 72 Days of God questions:
1) Do you believe in God? If so, based on which religion or spiritual practice? If not, why? Yes, I believe in God and acknowledge the Source by different names. Aloha or unconditional love is my credo.
2) What does the concept of God mean to you? God is beyond all concepts and cannot be known by the mind.
3) What do you feel is the purpose of life on earth? Experiencing is the purpose of existence.
4) What are you most passionate about and what do you wish to accomplish with your life? Living Love in all its appearances is my passion, without goals
5) What do you truly believe happens when you die? The concept of death is the same as the concept of birth…mere concepts. This is all there is.
Thank you for taking the time to respond to my questions, Kanoalani. I appreciate your insight.
After a few moments of star gazing and realizing that I didn’t see my hawk today, I went to bed shortly after midnight.