Day 21 | October 5, 2010
Ricardo and I continued to share stories about our lives. I kept wondering what I should focus on next regarding my journey.
Should I try to stick things out in Phoenix, look for a job, and continue exploring my new friendship with Ricardo, or work my way back to North Carolina to spend time with my family during the upcoming holidays?
It had been ten months since I had a job and a regular source of income, and once again, it was starting to get the best of me. Ricardo suggested that I light a candle and pray about it.
Day 22 | October 6, 2010
I woke up this morning feeling a bit depressed. It was a very heavy feeling, and I wasn’t exactly sure where it was coming from. Ricardo had noticed a change, too. I had woken up in the middle of the night, extremely hot, and having difficulty catching my breath. I figured it was the hot, dry Arizona climate. Ricardo mentioned that the very same thing had happened to him.
He also mentioned that, at one point, he thought he had a spirit in the house. He said that his family had felt the same way during their visits. He said the spirit didn’t bother or make him afraid, but I explained that no spirit should remain on the Earth plane; they all should be led to the light to continue their journey elsewhere. I knew from experience that spirits stay on the Earth plane due to addictions, fear, guilt, or some other negative influence.
After talking things over with Ricardo, I realized that some of my depression was because I had placed myself under a lot of pressure to try and decide if I should stay in Phoenix and spend more time with him or if I should hit the road and continue my journey. I liked spending time with Ricardo. There was an intense soul connection between the two of us.
The thought of continuing my journey didn’t feel right. I felt we had met for a reason and wanted to explore that.
I continued to process these thoughts throughout the day, and when Ricardo got home from work, we continued the conversation about me staying or moving on. I wanted to stay, and he wanted me to stay, so we reached a mutual decision that I would stay a little while longer.
I suggested to Ricardo that we light a candle and use the days it stayed lit to explore all possibilities. He thought that was a great idea.
I also told him I wanted to clear the energy in his house and help the spirit cross into the light. He said that he was completely open to that, as well.
We spent our evening talking and then talking some more. Our conversations flowed so easily. Aside from my financial situation, which made me very vulnerable and continued to expose a tricky part of me to share, especially with someone I had just met, I was thrilled to be where my life had brought me. It was a great feeling. It had been a long time since I had felt this way. I felt like a new passageway had been opened in the Universe. I knew it was an opportunity to learn something.
By the end of the day, the depression had dissipated, but I was still convinced I needed to clear the energy in Ricardo’s house.