I’ll Remember was the theme song to the 1994 film With Honors. The song was released as a single in March of 1994. It was released a year later on Madonna’s 1995 ballads compilation, Something to Remember.

Warmth and generosity (Astrology Forecast) This influence makes you feel quite good, optimistic and positive about life in general. You have strong feelings of warmth and generosity toward others, particularly friends and those whom you encounter on a day-to-day basis. You feel that you would like to protect and care for everyone you meet. You will derive uncommonly deep experiences from what appear to be ordinary, routine interactions with others. Your everyday surroundings, your family and relatives will provide the satisfaction that may be missing at other times. And these encounters will provide opportunities to grow and to enlarge your life. The usually confined limits of daily routine can actually become the vehicle for new chances and opportunities. Cultivate your friendships, for there is a good chance that a friend will be able to perform a valuable service for you at this time. And it is just as likely that you will do the same for a friend. In either case, you will come out ahead. Friendships or other relationships with women quite often prove rewarding at this time, with various benefits. You could have an emotional experience that enriches you or a business opportunity, or she could act as a guide to aspects of yourself that you do not normally experience, but which help you come to complete self-understanding. This influence may stimulate your interest in spiritual or religious matters, usually in the form of a renewed interest in the religious or spiritual beliefs that you learned as a child. Such experiences from your past can be very valuable to you now. Reliving them does not mean you are backsliding to attitudes that you have outgrown. There is still something there for you to realize and learn from. On occasion, this influence signifies that you are in the public eye or that you have to deal with large groups of people in some way. In either case, you should be successful. Copyright Astro.com

The day after my family returned to North Carolina, I headed over to the Full Moon bookstore to participate in my third tarot class. I had enrolled in this class the previous month to learn more about tarot cards and how to interpret them.

The class went by reasonably quickly, but right at the end, we were asked to do a “past life” reading for ourselves. I shuffled my cards, cut the deck, and proceeded to lay out the cards in the traditional Celtic Cross format. After looking at the cards momentarily, I noticed several things were happening. The cards told the story of an Emperor, a baby, and some sacrifice or betrayal. In conclusion, Perga said the reading revealed a past life with Jesus Christ.

My Third Reading with Perga | The next day, I returned to the Full Moon bookstore to sit down with Perga for my third one-on-one reading. After going through my story the night before, I wrote down the following questions and took them with me to my reading:

1. Other readers have told me that I’m on a quest. Can you describe the quest, its purpose, and its outcome? Perga confirmed that I am on a quest. Its goal is to bring spirit to life. It’s about taking chances, paying close attention to my intuition, and reacting promptly to situations that may come up regarding the quest.

2. What is the significance of my name, my relationship with Jesus Christ, and this past life reading that occurred the day before? Perga confirmed everything that came up in class the day before. She told me that in this past life, I stood in the presence of Jesus at one point.

3. My story reveals a lot of instances where friends and family members have crossed over and then found ways to communicate with me once they’ve reached the other side. My Astrology chart states that I’m a medium. What type of medium am I? Perga confirmed that I am a medium and my gift is pure and perfect. After looking closely at my astrology chart a few days later, she sent me the following email: “Chris! I did your chart. You have the southern node in the 8th house, declaring mediumship gifts from a past life. You have Uranus in the 12th house and the northern node – – all of this combines with your mediumship gifts.” At that point, I did some additional investigating and reviewed my entire astrology chart.

Here’s what I discovered:

Excerpts from my Astrology Chart | “The Sun, the ruler of your life events, was found in the twelfth house. This is the house of the subconscious mind, internal limitations and represents all sorrowful matters. Your ruler here gives you a tendency to act inconspicuously most of the time. You are interested in bringing clarity to all matters; investigating, doing research. The position also denotes a power for interpretation and much of your time is spent with the purpose of self-analysis. Deep in your inner self, there is a spiritual feeling which can generate the necessary power to make you rise from obscurity to success and total triumph. There are intense inclinations for psychic matters, part of the interest being caused by unfortunate circumstances as that of parental estrangement or similar tragedies; you have the capacity to accept misfortune with understanding and then to react with sentiment. We suggest this: accept first and then strike back with courage against the subjective shadows of destiny. Mediumship is noted. Don’t let the flame extinguish. The sextile from Mars to Neptune shows that you understand the difference between passion and compassion. You realize there are times when you can assert yourself to satisfy your own desires, but that at other times you must yield to someone else’s desires. You are intellectually aware of your responsibility to serve others when they are unable to serve themselves. You are imaginative in finding suitable means to express your creative abilities. There are many ways to exploit your abilities. You are particularly suited to professions that satisfy important social needs. You have qualities that promote healing in others, perhaps through the soothing effect of your trust and sincerity. Also, your well-developed rhythmic sense lends itself to such artistic pursuits as dancing, physical culture, and acting, in which physical grace is a prime ingredient. You could work successfully in undercover enterprises involving secret material. Your psychic abilities would offer some protection even when conditions seem threatening.

Neptune Ruling the Eighth House: Neptune, the planet of mysticism and mystery, was found ruling the eighth house at the time of birth. The result is that this astrological combination makes you intensely psychic and the possessor of a strong intuition which is a derivation of your keen receptiveness. Many insights from dreams and feelings of unknown origin could have a quality of prophecy. You seem to have a facile comprehension of all metaphysical things and this position gives you great potential to be elevated to high levels of accomplishments. Some mediumship could be an interest developed at an adult age.  The details of my quest continued to unravel.

Christ and Chris | I guess I have always felt a powerful connection to Christ, not only because of my name but because I felt I clearly understood what he tried to teach humanity. He didn’t judge people. He loved people regardless of their weaknesses and admired them for their strengths. No human condition was too much for his unconditional love. He understood the challenges of the disadvantaged and took up for them. He also realized what it felt like to be opposed by a majority of people who were not enlightened or spiritual.

As I thought about all of this, I took a moment to reflect on the beginning of my story when I sat in the woods and asked my God for divine guidance and understanding. (See Lucky Star.) While conversing with my God, I could have never imagined in a million years that it would lead me to this revelation. I didn’t realize then that this same subject would come up in other readings in the future, and the details would continue to reveal themselves more clearly.

Could I remember having a conversation with Christ in this previous life? Of course not. Did I believe that Perga’s reading was accurate and that information such as this was revealed in a tarot card reading? I was open to the possibility, but what I believed didn’t matter. I’m sure anyone reading this story would come to their conclusion. For some, it would resonate, while for others, it would open the door to ridicule and judgment. Was it possible that Perga’s reading was inaccurate? Of course. Did this information resonate within my soul on some level? In some strange way, it did. It felt very familiar to me, but I was still unsure of the exact details. What did it all mean? I didn’t have a clue. I wondered if it had something to do with the meaning of my name: William (A Wish), Christopher (Bearing Christ), Flowing Down (Jordan).

I continued on my quest.

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I’LL REMEMBER

Mmmm, mmmm
Say good-bye to not knowing when
The truth in my whole life began
Say good-bye to not knowing how to cry
You taught me that

Chorus
And I’ll remember the strength that you gave me
Now that I’m standing on my own
I’ll remember the way that you saved me
I’ll remember

Inside I was a child
That could not mend a broken wing
Outside I looked for a way
To teach my heart to sing

And I’ll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I’m standing on my own
I’ll remember the way that you changed me
I’ll remember

I learned
to let go
of the illusion that we can possess
I learned
to let go
I travel in stillness
And I’ll remember
happiness
I’ll remember [I’ll remember]
Mmmmm… [I’ll remember]
Mmmmm…

And I’ll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I’m standing on my own
I’ll remember the way that you changed me
I’ll remember

No I’ve never been afraid to cry
AND I finally have a reason why
I’ll remember [I’ll remember]
No I’ve never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I’ll remember [I’ll remember]
No I’ve never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I’ll remember [I’ll remember]