MAY
On the morning of May 2, 2026, at 9:30 AM, I woke up from a dream that I had just finished. In the dream, I was stretched out in a recliner, wearing gray sweatpants and a hoodie. I was waiting for him to get home, but had no clear recognition of who he was. In walked Thadeus. He walked over to the recliner and piled in on top of me, hugged me, and just lay there in my arms. It felt so peaceful, as if it was exactly where we both belonged in that moment. I put my hand inside his pants and began rubbing his smooth bubble butt, and noticed that he wasn’t wearing any underwear. I brought this to his attention and said, “You know you could have made a lot more money selling this, more than working at your job.” And he said, “I could say the same thing about you.” Once again, this feeling of acceptance and peace came over me, as if everything in the past had been completely healed and we were exactly where we needed to be. And then I woke up, realizing what had just happened.
I lay there in the bed with an overwhelming sense of peace and thought to myself, “Talk about a full-circle moment!” The dream was utterly unexpected and came out of nowhere. I never imagined in a million years that I would dream about him again, especially a second dream that felt so real. Thadeus, an Italian, was my first. His real name was Mark Petrangelo. I always had an affinity for Italians.
Even though we had broken up, I never wanted him to leave back in 1985; I wanted him to stay.
The interesting thing about this dream and other dreams from the past year was that I had placed some of the hand-crafted rattles and wooden figures that Ahote and Tuwa gifted me during my days at Hopi on the walls at the head of my bed, facing east. Additionally, I hung the sacred geometry symbol of Metatron, and the 64 Star Tetrahedron, which I felt was appropriate at the age of 64. My dreams of the last year could have been a book all by themselves.
To add to the positive energy of my bedroom, I placed other items I had collected during my adventures.
That night, before going to bed, I played the entire Quick Step and Side Kicks album by the Thompson Twins. While listening, I thought back to the days Thadeus and I drove down the streets of Greensboro, North Carolina, listening to this cassette. We both loved it so much.
During the early morning hours of Mother’s Day, May 10, 2026, I learned that Christ consciousness, often defined as unconditional love and the highest state of human spiritual awareness, is linked to sacred geometry through the “Christ Consciousness Grid,” which is typically represented by a combination of icosahedron and dodecahedron structures. This sacred geometry symbolizes the energetic, harmonious, and unified structure of the Earth and human consciousness.
Both were included in the Metatron symbol above my bed, and unbeknownst to me, the structure sitting on the coffee table in the living room beside my Archangel Michael statue was a icosahedron.
The 64 Star Tetrahedron above the head of my bed, facing east, was a profound, sacred geometric structure representing the fundamental, fractal lattice of vacuum energy at the quantum level (Planck field). It symbolized the union of masculine (linear) and feminine (curved) energies, balancing physical and spiritual realms.
Key Representations and Meanings:
Fundamental Quantum Structure: Popularized by Nassim Haramein, it is considered the geometric, holographic, and fractal organization of space-time, often called the “tetra matrix”.
Sacred Geometry & Balance: It is a 3D extension of the Flower of Life and Metatron’s Cube, embodying unity, balance, and the interconnectedness of all things.
Merkaba Field: It is often viewed as a representation of the Merkaba, a light field that transports consciousness and aids spiritual ascension.
Harmony and Unity: Metaphysically, it signifies connecting individual spiritual paths with the “soul family” in perfect harmony.
Structure of Creation: It represents the “alpha and omega,” showing how to divide to infinity within a finite boundary.
It is widely utilized for meditation, energy work, and as a symbol of personal power, stability, and high-level, organized energy.
On May 11, 2026, using a different Google Earth filter, I looked at my neighborhood from a broader perspective and noticed something very interesting. The area above Greenfield Lake resembled a human head and brain with an Egyptian beard peering off to the right, looking directly into Optimist Park. The sacred tree was located in the mouth. Sections of the white horse head and Greenfield Lake sat at N34.13’12’, N34.12’36’, and N34.12′, which were my numbers. The green golf course at the bottom of the image resembled a heart, and, collectively, the image mirrored the Twin Hearts meditation I performed during my 36 prayers in this chapter. (Bringing the heart and mind together as one.) W77’57’18 was located at the crown.
Going back to October 2023 in Google Earth’s historical view of Optimist Park, the month I moved from California to Wilmington, an image appeared in the clearing that resembled the female version of the Shroud of Turin, a female Native American ancestor, or some other unknown female figure. This image faded away between then and May 2026.
Meanwhile, this video was extremely informative and included a mention of Kabbalah.
